it's been a while...

i'm trying to be positive so, yea, school rocks.
Finally got some sec 1 classes. taking the sec 3 pure chem class, this year. and of course, i cant run away from the graduating classes. i dont know if i should be happy or not. cos at least, i finally got what i wanted. but bad news is, i'm attached to a teacher who will be going on maternity leave soon and another contract teacher who will be leaving the school in june. very soon, i'll be handling the classes on my own. can i start demanding for the same salary as teachers too??? the increment i got now is not enough leh...
oh yea, 4 research teams to handle this year. oh my god.

but, Alhamdullilah, i guess i'm happy with whatever i have and am doing now. cos, teaching is a very noble job. HAHA.




mom always says, "setiap perbuatan,baik atau buruk, mesti ada balasannya."
my students said, "ade lori, ade bas. ade hari, boleh balas."
hahaha. dua-dua banyak betol. but, i leave/left it all to Allah.

well, sucks to be you. (:

Pangkor sounds like a lot of fun. I remember Zaliza telling me all the fun activities she did when she went there 6 months ago. And now, i'm hearing a repeat telecast, except that this time, it's from the sister. About a month ago when I was still deciding where to go for my holidays this year, it was between Phuket and KL. Now I know I should have gone to Phuket. Reason why I chose KL, was because of a certain group of people, who of course, never really give a damn, or never actually saw that I was making an effort to "balance" things out by spending my holidays with both the boyfriend and erm, "friends". So much for "compromise". I really don't wanna argue anymore, but you know me, I can't stand it when accusations or assumptions were made of me, which were of course, untrue, because nobody actually knows who I truly am, because nobody ever tried to get to know who I really am.

Maybe there are. And they are the ones I would call friends. They are the people whom I rarely get to meet because of our busy schedules, (and we totally understand that, therefore we never complaint) but still drop me an sms just to ask "how are you?" They are the ones who would randomly call me up just to share a joke or a piece of good news. They are the ones who cried with me when I found out I lost my grandfather. They are the ones who prayed for his passing too. They are the ones I cried with when we found out one of our friends whom we've only met for 3 days, lost her baby. They are the ones who understood if I had to meet my partner, and neither did I ever complaint if they abandon me, alone, during lunch so that they can have lunch with their partners. They understand that I'm a very private person and I dont share a lot of things with them, even though they tell me everything about them, even the colour of bra they're wearing. They ask me what's wrong when I'm not acting normal or when they dont see me around, and they dont make assumptions or even talk behind my back. They appreciate my presence even if it was only for 5 minutes. They appreciate my participation even if I was on webcam while they've all gathered together. They dont leave me in the dark, when I've missed out certain things. They still include me even when I wasnt there for them during their shittiest moments. Because, they accept me for who I am.

It's not wise to tell others what to do. Even teachers dont expect students to do everything as told. It's not easy to "balance" things out, and it's not easy to compromise either. Sometimes, not everything that we do gets appreciated. Sometimes, nothing gets appreciated. That's something I learn from here. And it's not that we never tried. It's just, people. And life.

There is a reason why some people want to cut ties with others. If we dont know their reason, we have no right to say anything at all. I think, things get solved if I'm gone. Cos personally, I'm very tired too, especially when things like this, have happened more than once, more than twice. I lost count. I keep losing this battle, cos, I'm just one person. And I'm not anyone's favourtie to begin with. Maybe those who have walked away before me, are happier now too, I dunno.

Oh dont worry about me. I'm not as pathetic as you think I am, if you think that I only have my boyfriend to depend on. I have other groups of friends too. And by the way, Raziz is not just a boyfriend. He's part of me. Even every single one of my family member can accept that. My mother asks me about him all the time as if we're married already.

So since, maybe, probably, you wont see me around, so that things would be better for you, I say, there truly is peace now.

Giant chicken with avocados sandwiches, blueberry muffins, or boring old chewy fudgy brownies?
hhmmmm...

Jeha thinks I should go over to her place now and bake something together, cos she's bored at home too since her hubby has to go to work. Sounds fun, but I'm currently too lazy to travel all the way to the westside.

Aaaahhhhh...I seriously miss my classmates.

2 more weeks of holiday for me, while Zizi's back to work already. Sister's still at Pangkor, and that means, I have the whole room to myself. Oh yea, I just came back from KL 2 days ago. And my legs are still aching.

So, KL was fun. The days were filled with excessive shopping and spending and extremely good food, and the nights were filled with so much excitement. Not gonna elaborate here, cos I like to keep the memories for myself. Well, I bought sounevirs for everyone at home. The best one has got to be my abang's Gap pullover, which was the hardest to get too, cos the guy's so cerewet, he's worst than any demanding girl I know.

By the way, we found a new place to chill at. Fika cafe C:. Had enough of the usual Al-Majlis or Mosi, but we'll come back some time because the people there are really cool and nice. And of course, Al-Majlis has the nicest Bamia I've ever tasted. Fika cafe has a really nice ambience. Cool furnishings, great food, and they also serve detox sparkling juice (something I really needed after all the food I stuff myself with back in KL).

I need to change the bedsheets already. Maybe I'll go get new ones with my mom later today. And then maybe i'll get her to teman me for some relaxing foot massage too. heh heh. Life's good when you've got moneeeeyyyyy. who can ever deny that? and please eh, the money I spend is from my own hardwork, not from my parents' pocket, i'm not like some people lor. But of course, I do charity too okay.




Of course it's not easy to take care of everyone's feelings all the time, but it sure is easy for some people to hurt just one person for so many times. And of course, they never ever realise it, cos they're too busy thinking that they've "never done anything wrong" and everyone else is just "being ridiculous".
I say, this time, I'm out. I've had enough.

urgh! I HATE CHOMEL!
i will NEVER buy their products anymore. the last item i bought at a certain outlet in tampines, was a watch which turned out to be FAULTY. they made me wait for 2 MONTHS for the thing to be repaired! i'm still counting the number of days, by the way. they said they would give me a call to update me about the watch, but of cosssss, the service staff over there STILL HAS NOT CALLED ME. and this has happened twice! not only did they made me WAIT for so freaking long, they also made me waste my money on transport just to get there! TWICE!

idiots.

Zizi's obssessed with new phone.
me craving for bamia. But i jus ate less than an hour ago. signs n symptoms of putting on weightttt..

and ouuhh, here comes our apple rose mint (:

"90% of couples break up during the NS period. the remaining 10% are those who would most probably stay together for a very very very long time. i know you're a strong person (:"

i guess, i am strong.